June 12, 2015

To Write Again

It's been 4 years since my last post. WOW! I'm having difficulties on what to write, where do I start, am I doing right, should I start a new blog or should I delete my old posts. All these questions strike me now but who cares?! I'm going to write again! I used to write in Bahasa but I found it more difficult now to do so. Maybe it's because my Bahasa is getting worse or maybe English is just more straightforward to deliver my messages. Anyway, I don't think it would be a problem right?

Reading my previous posts was like reading another person blog. I guess I've changed a lot. From the way I'm writing and the way of thinking. I feel totally grown up :)) Everybody's changing, and I don't think there's something wrong with that as long as it's positive. So why it takes four years to write again, Hana? Oh it's a long story. I've warned you. You can stop reading now xD

OK fellas, bear with me!

I remember I ever try to shut down this blog years ago just because I didn't want people to relate my music project with me. It was a mysterious music project I must say, since for the first three years of the project I decided not to reveal my real identity for the sake of many things. But I found that you can't really delete a blog, well at least on blogspot :D So what I did was to make this blog private that only me could open it and change the name of the blog. Voila!

It's a good thing that this blog is still accessible now as I could see how myself grow. I did write many funny and crunchy stories. Maybe now it's time to bring something more to this blog, something that other could learn from my experiences, something more thoughtful that could bring advantage to other. Wowowowo what a thought xD Let's see if I could nail it! 

Back to four years of void! What was happened? I must say a lot. I had a big career changing. I was leaving my comfort zone. I left my brag-able jobs mostly because I couldn't stand working with my bosses (or maybe it was me!) Long story short, I was trying to pursue my dream, to be an entrepreneur. I decided to learn how to sew and start a project called KOMOI. Quitting nine to five job feels like heaven, but not when it comes to personal finance. I spend all of my saving to finance my project during the period and yeah, not everything fell into the right places. It needs time for a project to bring stable income. Moreover, it was not easy for my Mom to tell her friends that I wasn't a manager anymore, Hana is just a tailor now.

After a long argument with Mom, I finally give up and began searching for a what-my-Mom-call job. But I felt like IT world didn't fit me anymore. Luckily I got interview at an animation company. They were searching for project/production manager to manage the production of 3D animated TV series. I got the job and everything was not the same anymore. It was completely new to me, every single day I was learning new things especially from my mistakes. The pace of this industry is extremely fast, maybe because the project that I handle is face to face with broadcasting date. Thus, I need to make sure every single delivery could be delivered on schedule and meet the quality. I spend almost thirteen hours everyday included Saturday at the office. I couldn't make music anymore or spare time on the weekend to sew a dress or two because I was craving for time to relax.

It's not that I hate this job, I love it! Every single hard work was paid every time I see episode per episode is being broadcasted. Moreover, I found my other half. He was just sitting there, seven steps from my desk. I meet so many awesome artists who work passionately. This job makes me realize what I want and what I don't want to be. It teaches me how to be a great leader and it inspires me to work with heart.

I begin to connect the dot. Everything happens for a reason. You may find distractions on your way to pursue your dream. But feel no regret. Embrace every opportunity. Don't give up on your dream as maybe those distractions could help you accelerate :) 

Well.. well.. what a long story xD Feel bored? Here watch Sonic Boom, the serial that took thirteen hours of my day :P